Leaning...Something I did Today

Great big dents fill my heart. My fingers trace their invisible beginnings...not knowing where the hastily stitched seams connect to reality. Trying to make sense of the senseless. Too heavy to lift, filled with whispers from the past. Longing for a future unburdened, where the snow falls back into a blue sky. Carefully and proportionally measured. A balance that many may envy. Cut out from my pain, I make paper dolls dance in front of me, paper dolls. Lifting my heart. Creating something where I thought nothing remained. Finding what's left and going from there. Swallow my unanswered questions every morning, wash it down with coffee from the old cart, or bottled water. Liquid fills my empty stomach, dreams and mixed feelings invade my mind. Subtle changes, restoring. I hope.